Hello everyone,
It´s been a long time since I haven´t been on. Reality is starting to hit growing up is hard....high school is hard everything has been hard lately and I H dont know what to do I didnt graduate this year I disappointed my parents. I dont have any friends in school anymore I´m insecure about myself I E dont know what to do anymore everything is getting complicated sometimes I think of ending it all one day....but then I think back and think of how L my parents my little sister or my pets would feel. It´s getting harder and harder to keep up with everything and listening to depressing music P doesn´t help. Im struggling really bad I disappointed everyone im not happy like I used to be back then when I was a kid now I have to look up to the beauty standers, and I feel like everyone looks at me... eyes following you and watching everything you do. I just want to go back to the days I felt happy and free, It´s so hard because I´ve battled depression before and won! But now I think it´s winning...I try to think positive of my future or when will be the day I will get married and have a family. Im slowly falling back into that deep dark hole I fought so hard to get out of I need help. I may or may not lose this battle but I want to let you guys know if im not active in 1-2 months im in a way better place. I love you all .
Sincerely, Me.